So...

I'm sick. In the head, if you want to be specific. But yesterday I learned something...

You can physically feel a mental breakdown about 2-3 hours before it's gonna happen? Awesome right?! Yes, well, surprise aside... it's not that cool. Luckily like most things... given enough warning you can prevent it. All I had to do was calm down... and go vent myself on something.

I'm not out the woods yet though. Everything that built up to cause my near-mental breakdown into partial insanity, is still in my life. I could bitch about it all, but what would that accomplish me? Nothing.

Except possibly appearing emo and attempting to garner pity and attention from you poor saps who are reading this. So...

One of my best friends got kicked out. I took him in, opened up my room... and he... decides to take advantage? The guy is eating me out of house and home, he's an ass, won't get a job because he won't try, and is gonna flunk this semester at Palomar. Why am I this dude's friend? Probably because I never had to look at him from this perspective... but fuck him. He's out.

Having to deal with him has added way too much stress to my plate, and simply put I can't handle it all. I'm trying to cram all the work for all my classes right now, because I want good grades. I work most weekdays I'm not at school, and the time between that goes to training.

I have to thank my gym and no-gi jiu-jitsu instructor... if it wasn't for grappling I probably would have lost it about a month ago I'm thinking. I love the sport though, and every week I visibly improve, which is enough for me to go back every time.

There isn't much of a life in there I guess, or else not a life worth bragging about. Chicks... I do well enough for myself. But... yeah. An area that will always be beyond my understanding.

Anyway later people, I'm gonna go shower at my neighbors house 'cause our water got shut off. Then I'm gonna go finish my work for tonight, then leave. Go blow off some steam before I go to class. The next post I promise will be about training, and not as introspective as this one.